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ASIAN. OUT.

Clean

I need to clean.

Everything looks so messy around me. I'm gonna vacuum, mop, scrub, and dust. Maybe I'll even rearrange some things.

I just need to clean.

Dare You To Move

Alright.

I understand.

I get it.

I screw up.

I can't blame it on me being human or whatever. I just don't think and I get caught up in moments.

But why, for every ounce of happiness I get to experience, are there five times the consequences waiting for me at the end of that road?

This is karma isn't it?

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ASIAN. OUT.

Feelings?

This is why I love How I Met Your Mother :)
Boys.. LEARN! :P

ARE YOU SUFFERING FROM FEELINGS?

What Are Feelings?

Feelings are a tender emotional state that develop when a male becomes fixated on a single female to the exclusion of others. Even others with bigger boobs.

Early Warning Signs

When you’re around one particular chick, you experience:

•Pounding Heart
•Dry Mouth
•Nausea
•Inability to speak
•Sweating
•Desire to say flattering things

If undiagnosed, these warning signs can quickly develop into the full blown disease…

Symptoms

•Warm fluttery feelings in stomach
•Lightheadedness
•An unexplained urge to watch Love Actually
•Sudden increase in cuddling occurrences
•Brunch cravings
•Explosive monogamy
•Happiness
•Failure to notice other hot women
•Crosswording

Transmission

Though correlation remains scientifically inconclusive, studies indicate “hand holding” may play a role in spreading Feelings from one person to another.

Treatment

At this time the only treatment for Feelings is a multi-week course in Other Women. If symptoms persist, repeat course at a higher dosage. NOTE: This treatment can result in harmful side-effects such as rash, infection, and in some cases, pregnancy.

paid for by the Barney Stinson Foundation

“Together we can end Feelings”

Find more here.

I can't sleep.. What the hell? Get outta my head.

Big Big Girl

You know, I'm all for giving up your time to help others and altruism, but sometimes people need to set aside time for themselves.

It's selfish to take time to yourself and not care about anything else.. FALSE.

I mean, goodness gracious once in a while BE SELFISH! It's human nature. It doesn't make you a bad person, it makes you human. What's wrong with being human?
Okay, most humans are stupid, ignorant, and half the time they don't know much beyond what the box with the moving pictures tell them about the world (although now a days that box is flat and has high definition images and sound.. love technology).

But that's not my point, my point is that if you don't take care of yourself or really take some time away to just be with yourself, your thoughts, and your needs, how are you going to be able to save others?

Can doctor's save lives if they themselves are the ones who are sick?
Are you any good to someone else if you can't save yourself?
And if you don't know how to save yourself, is saving others making up for what you can't do for yourself? In that case, is it more for the people you're saving, or is it for yourself? Is that itself a selfish act?

In my opinion, those who are so desperate to help others are the ones in need of help themselves. Hiding behind the selfless acts doesn't make things any better. Yeah, it's a temporary fix, good for the community, and makes you look and feel real good about things.

Help others, but do it for the right reasons. There's a difference between favors and actually helping someone through a selfless act. Favors, you can expect something back.. You can't expect something in return when you give up something willingly without being asked (I'm branching off on a tangent now... I'll revisit this another day :P)

(Anyways..)

Even those who are the best of all Superheros found time to make some time and happiness for themselves.

Superman, even though he's technically an alien, had his Fortress of Solitude and Lois Lane.
Spider-Man had his photography and Mary Jane.

We as humans are selfish by nature. Deal with it.
But fight it and learn not to succumb to it all the time.

These are the late night thoughts I have. Whether or not they make sense doesn't matter to me. I just have to get them out before I sleep.

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Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

Is it sad that food blogs make me extremely happy?

Food is one of the few things that never disappoints me in life.
God I love food.

I had an awesome visit to Boiling Crab with my favorite little sister this afternoon. Gahhh.. So good. No words to describe. I swear one day I'm going to get (a word here meaning.. STEAL) the recipe and make that shiet myself at home :D

I was going to go on this long ass rant about some stupid crap that was annoying me, but I don't think I will. I'm having a pretty good day compared to the crappy week I spent beating myself up for the dumb shit that I do and quite frankly, I'd like to stay in this happy mood.

Speaking of happy things, some people are just too cute, namely people who bite my arm out of nowhere.. oh and my roommates! ;)

I don't know where any of this is going, but I like it :P
It's nice to know someone else is on the same page as I am.. relationship-wise.
Sometimes things get too complicated, but this is different. Simple and fun.

That's all I ask for.

Don't Judge. Just listen.
This is my life and I'm living it.

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Someone Else's Arms

There's this night I keep thinking about.
I'm trying to make sense of it all because for years now I've blocked it from my mind and played it off like it was nothing.
Sometimes when you do that long enough, you start to believe that what you've been thinking is true.

But the fog is starting to disappear.. I'm not sure I want to accept though.

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