I can't even put into words what I'm feeling right now.
I hate it, but I love it.
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
ASIAN. OUT.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
Fields Of Gold
Growing up just keeps getting better.
I don't want to keep seeing people leave.
Mrs. Lanni passed away recently. She was such a beautiful, kind, and supportive woman. I'm sad that I didin't get to tell her how much she's helped me these past 5 years. Some performances I would leave the "L" feeling like shit only to have her approach me and tell me what a wonderful job I did and how much she enjoyed watching it. People don't know how much little gestures can get someone through an entire day.
RIP Mrs. Lanni.. you will be greatly missed by all of us.
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
I don't want to keep seeing people leave.
Mrs. Lanni passed away recently. She was such a beautiful, kind, and supportive woman. I'm sad that I didin't get to tell her how much she's helped me these past 5 years. Some performances I would leave the "L" feeling like shit only to have her approach me and tell me what a wonderful job I did and how much she enjoyed watching it. People don't know how much little gestures can get someone through an entire day.
RIP Mrs. Lanni.. you will be greatly missed by all of us.
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Delicate
What a great weekend!
The Halloween party was amazing and I had sooo much fun. Thank you for everyone who made the night impossibly great! :)
The day after was just as great. I am so proud of my student. I've been having doubts about why I teach. With all the stuff going on at school, I felt like I should be focusing more on that, but watching him perform down that street made me remember why I do it. He works really hard to accomplish what he does and it makes me so proud when I see all of it pay off in that moment. So congratulations to him for doing such a great job and making me love coaching all over again :)
In other news.. El sigh.
It seems to me, that my happiness almost always results in someone's pain. And when I realize that, I'm not very happy anymore. It's guilt and anger. I just want to be happy without hurting anyone, but like I said.. for every ounce of happiness I experience, there are more consequences waiting down the road for me to face. I'm starting to think being happy is just not worth it.
I can't help what I feel and what I don't feel though.
Alright.. OCHEM TIME.
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
ASIAN. OUT.
The Halloween party was amazing and I had sooo much fun. Thank you for everyone who made the night impossibly great! :)
The day after was just as great. I am so proud of my student. I've been having doubts about why I teach. With all the stuff going on at school, I felt like I should be focusing more on that, but watching him perform down that street made me remember why I do it. He works really hard to accomplish what he does and it makes me so proud when I see all of it pay off in that moment. So congratulations to him for doing such a great job and making me love coaching all over again :)
In other news.. El sigh.
It seems to me, that my happiness almost always results in someone's pain. And when I realize that, I'm not very happy anymore. It's guilt and anger. I just want to be happy without hurting anyone, but like I said.. for every ounce of happiness I experience, there are more consequences waiting down the road for me to face. I'm starting to think being happy is just not worth it.
I can't help what I feel and what I don't feel though.
Alright.. OCHEM TIME.
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
ASIAN. OUT.
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